Missing you ♥

Sigh.. well, he's busy. Busy. Studying.

Barely replying.

No time for lil ol me anymore.

Even when Ash said let's go to Langkawi this Dec, then, he said "We'll see first la."

Because why? He has blardy Majors. And thats all he's worried about.

When I called him, voice stressssss jer.

Sigh..

No idea how much I'm missing him.

*sob*

I hate how people get all stressed up for some blardy exam. If it was me, I'll be like, ok calm down. Because if I stress, I'll forget stuff. Proven. Dunno la. Not everyone is like me, boleh chill jer.

*shrugs*

RBD - Tu Amor

Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say

Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain

What I feel in my heart

What I feel more each day

How to make you see

How to let you know

How to say how to say how I love you so

With words you understand

Words that get right through to your heart

Here's the place to start

Tu amor, I will always be

Tu amor, means the world to me

Estarás siempre en mi corazón

You're the one in my soul

And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes

Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe

What I feel in my heart

What I'll feel for all time

How to make you see

How to let you know

How to say how to say how I need you so

With words you understand

Words that get through to your soul

Words that let you now

Tu amor, I will always be

Tu amor, means the world to me

Estarás siempre en mi corazón

You're the one in my soul

And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

You're the one that

I need in my arms

Believe me these words

I say are words that come straight from my heart

How do I make you believe

Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

Tu amor, I will always be

Tu amor, means the world to me

Estarás siempre en mi corazón

You're the one in my soul

And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

Updates

Last night was.. ok la. Warm. XD

Went over to his place & lepak. Told him I wouldn't kacau him study as long as I'm there. So he agreed. Ended up, HE was the one who came to kacau me.

There I was, nicely enjoying Zombieland on his iPod, sitting on his bed, suddenly came, paused the movie, and came pining me down. I was like, No. Go study. Then he said Dun wan.

Ace suddenly tried to barge in though; he went, "Blardy hell. Wanna take my notes la." Luckily he heard him trying to open the door. Or else. :P He got his notes, then shook his head at us, and walked out of the room. I was like, "No!! His fault." XD Which was true. Told him to study kan? I was so innocently sitting on his bed watching movie on his bed.

After that, I was hungry. I made him make me dinner. Maggi. Heh. :P

He merajuk for like, 5 mins, cause I called this dude who added me on Facebook cute. What? His profile pic reminded me of Pete Wentz *drools*

Well I told him, no matter how cute other guys are, he's always the one for me. =)

After I got home, showered, packed my stuff, played RC abit, crawled into my bed, and it was goodnight. =3

This morning my mum curi my car for the day. Cause she sent hers for service. More like, gonna change her super old engine. So she has to use my car to get to work. Dropped me off. Probably gonna drop my car for me later. Depends la. No lunch out today. XD

Missing him. As usual. Hope you're not bored of my saying this.

xx

Secret Indulgence

OH.. I've been SO naughty..

For the past month, my lunch consisted of:-

Maggi
Mashed Potato
Rice
Fried Chicken
KFC
McDonald
Fries
Meatballs
Ice Cream
Snacks

T.T!! OMG!!

Only..good news is.. I didnt put on a single gram on the weighing scale.

Why?

Cause it's either I eat a barely more than 150kJ dinner..

Or

I dont eat.

So!! Balanced ma..

XD

Sigh..gotta discipline back myself.

Hmph!

xx

Awkward Silences

I miss him. Terribly. And, well, PMS was NOT so awesome last night.

On the way to gym, I got into a emotional hyperventilating mode.

I cried when someone came out slow at the parking and the guy at the back got it.

I cried when someone followed me so close I couldn't park at this spot, and then, after I made a round, some Saga stole my spot RIGHT in front of me.

Well not literally cry. I went into a watery eyed situation because I didnt wanna cry over such a thing so I told myself not to cry.

I breathed deeply, I exhale, I stopped at the side of the road, and told myself to chill.

Gym wasn't as awesome either. 2 weeks - can't do 30 bicep curls in a shot, kept missing the dance steps.

Was quite disappointed with myself, in a way.

And then after that, I called him.

And he just kept silent on the phone.

So, I said: "Why're you keeping silent on the phone? I'm talking to you."

"Oh..erm..I know this excuse doesn't work..*silence* I'm studying."

Alright, fine, you wanna study go ahead. Don't let me ruin ur day.

It's NOT that I dont want him to study and all but, at least, he could have told me straight when I called him, that his mum called and threatened him if he doesn't score for his exams, its byebye to Tarc & A-levels.

Well if it was me, I'll say "Screw you ma. No one can force me to get an A if I JUST can't do it. It's like, trying to build a laptop from scratch when you dont know a thing about computers."

He should just focus on his studies this week. No need to bother about my feelings and sense of need. I want him to have a good life too.

I wish him the best of luck for everything.

ILY.

Dry throat, nauseousness, headache. Hopefully I'll get better by lunch.

xx

New shoes~~

Well, yesterday went shopping. It was alright. Found this awesome shop called Opera. It's like Summit. Shoes that look like Charles & Keith, price like Nose & Novo. Heh. Awesome. Bought 2 shoes. 1 killer heels, & 1 gladiator flats.

Sorry no pics though. Forgot the pics are in my phone's memory and sent it for repair since it keeps hanging for no apparent reason, at least twice a day.

Then had dinner at Jun Kee Restaurant. Ate quite a lot of chicken & tofu. A bowl of rice. Killers.

Mum said I can go back to gym 5 days a week now. XD

This morning was crazy.

Mum came in with the vacuum cleaner so then I was talking to my mum then my godma called me so I said "Yea ma.." but then my mum started talking to me after my godma didn't say anything else.

Then all of a sudden she started babbling and going on and on about how "disrespectful", "showing attitude" I was. So I kept quiet and let her go on. Saying that my brain has "angin" & I'll be sweet when I want and not when I dont have the mood.

Maybe she DID say something and I didnt hear. Common sense, how am I supposed to hear if she said anything with the vacuum cleaner so noisy right next to my bed?

Like I said, if anyone has angin, it's her. Probably forgot her meds that morning. Who the fuck wants to cari pasal with other people at 6.45am? For God's sake.

Well, I was like, whatever.

I dont intend to let any petty stuff get to me early in the morning. Hm.

Missing my Hunny. No I'm NOT coming to see you this week. Dah 2 weeks. *restraining myself*

xx

P.S. I LOVE my new shoes. ;)

Updates

Hello~ Missing me? Hm. ;)

Well, recent events, went to KLCC on wednesday and jogged 1 round. Why?

Although I was filled with energy, that was all I can do because

1, he was hungry. so we went to Manhattan's Fish Market. My treat. Since he was obviously broke. :P

2, I ate all the veg he had and abit of fish, so I was abit filled.

3, no proper warm up, but, it was a good jog. Hv to bring him sometime with me. That fella. XD

Then, on Friday, which was yesterday..

Hm..;)

Of course, used the kit. XD He was worried though cause he didnt buy the pills, but I said whats there to worry about? Its only 0.1% chance of breaking. And since I was QUITE drunk, in a way, swaying abit and lots of hyperness, he said I was abit scary. Haha. Wait till he's drunk. I wanna see what he'll do. ;)

Today, went to Bangsar Shopping Complex, not Village. There's this new Dim Sum restaurant called The Ming Room. Nice place, Lovely dim sum.

AND - reasonable. Wait. Ok. Not reasonable. Cheap. Only 87 bucks, and we ordered aLOT.

Mum's chinese bday so I bought lunch. Hm. :)

Bought Wonka's Nerds though~~ Wee~~ Hadn't had it since..well, I think Form 2. I think la.

Wonka's Nerds~~ 8D

In the car. Yea. Perasan. :P

And, I'm broke for the month since I have 355 left in my ATM. 150 is for my shoes, 200 for parents going out I belanja, and the rest are for this month's spending money. Mum said she'll borrow me 100 if I didnt have enough. Heh.

Oh, yea, bad news. In a way, its bad. But there's also a positive side.

MOE put wrong info on the net, so apparently, SPM retake regis is closed. So, I'm stuck working for a year b4 I can retake.

Negative: Wasting yet another year, as I get older.

Positive: I get to buy my laptop, work for another year and get more awesome stuff XD PLUS I'm a Dec baby, so I'm not even considered 19 until end of the year, which means I get to enrol into Nursing when I'm 19+. Awesome huh?

So that's all the update for today I guess.

xx

P.S. Missing him, terribly. Although, not sure about him. He has to study. I miss my Hun Bun. =(